Hiding.
Hiding myself because I don't feel beautiful. I'm not satisfied with myself. I'm insecure. I'm not independent.
Dependent.
Dependent: (1) requiring someone for emotional support. (2) unable to do without.
I wasn't independent, I was insecure, I was scared to find myself therefore he was my comfort. He took my mind off being alone which would leave me no choice but to be just that- to be independent and to find myself. I was too scared, I was too insecure with myself so I covered it..
I wasn't independent, I was insecure, I was scared to find myself therefore he was my comfort. He took my mind off being alone which would leave me no choice but to be just that- to be independent and to find myself. I was too scared, I was too insecure with myself so I covered it..
Covering My Flaws.
My secret comfort was make-up. I covered my flaws to try to hide the real me the one that I was so embarrassed and disgusted of.
The Things I Hated (flaws)
Flaws:
- Broke my foot two years ago, I have a permanent limp.
- My nails don't grow.
- I struggle mentally with my weight.
- I have severe eczema. In general, I have terrible skin.
Beating Myself Up.
I constantly abused myself because the loving myself was so difficult. Loving myself was difficult because I wasn't satisfied with myself. How can you love something that you are unsatisfied with?
Everything's A Blur.
How can someone be so sure of themselves?
It's scary. Intimidating.
Why's it so hard to to find and love myself?!
Does the fact that i'm unsure of myself affect how I see the world?
Everything's a blur and I don't wan't to go down this path...
HIM- Strike of Inspiration.
He made me realize that I needed to start loving myself.
Finally.
Finally, I decided to stop using make-up to hide myself and to embrace all of me.
Overcoming.
It's time to start believing and understanding that I'm beautiful and that I'm worth it.
-My bruises are still under there but that's because loving yourself is a process and "time heals all wounds."
-My bruises are still under there but that's because loving yourself is a process and "time heals all wounds."
This is..
ME. Sharimar Yaris Cruz!